The Art of Beginning

My name is Zuigly Jayasinha and I don’t have some profound deep meaningful reason why I’m writing this blog and why I decided to present myself newly. I don’t really know if anyone will ever take the time to read this, but I wanted to create a space personally for myself to express myself to share my thoughts and feelings, and just whatever comes to mind really, and so if you are reading this, if you care enough to visit my website and learn about me first of all I want to say thank you and I do want to share at least my intentions and what I hope to achieve with putting all this work to put myself out there.

Please excuse me if this writing isn’t grammatically correct I feel like when I really sit down and write something I start to overthink it and then I rewrite and rewrite and so I decided to just record myself and so I’m just talking right into my Notes app on my iPhone and this is the way I want to post my first blog. This will probably be the way I post all my blogs. Originally, I wanted to make everything so perfect. I was planning on even putting this blog into AI and having it make some edits or make it sound better.

I didn’t even know I would bring up AI in my first blog, lol but here we are and I guess it really ties into the point I’m trying to make here. My intentions with this space and what I want to create, in the design and in the theme, the feeling behind it all is that I want to present; I guess capture a feeling that is rooted in kindness firstly and beauty. Those are kind of the themes I guess that I am focusing on at this time and so there isn’t a better way of presenting that unless it’s authentic, of course. I think that as the world keeps moving forward with a lot of automated ways of creating, I wanted to make sure that whatever words in this moment in time and in space that I wanted to share are actually being written down as I say them, which will then be really published on this website and there are no other vias in between of that intention.

I’m also a mother and I’m a wife and I care so much about my family and so I have the intention and I hope to be able to take the time to write down my feelings and viewpoints on that because I believe that there isn’t a greater love than the creation of a family dynamic. After I became a mother and the day my son was born it just transformed me and honestly, it really changed me. I’ve changed a lot in my life, but the moment I became a mother, it was probably the best transformation that I had been waiting for my entire life. I would say for my entire existence there is no greater love and so that is also another focus for me, expressing those feelings about being a mother.

Anyway, I’m going to wrap up this blog now with mentioning that I am extremely shy. I think that I embarrass easily when I really don’t need to. I get a lot of ideas or feelings of wanting to do something and then I stop myself from doing them and so I’m going to really work hard on not being so afraid and just having more confidence and being more brave when it comes to sharing my thoughts with the world so to speak.